DOLORES™
Do you ever wake up feeling like something in you changed? We’ve all experienced moments of changes that happen gradually and ‘inspired action’ , I am not talking about that. I am talking about when you wake up and the vibe is just different but in a positive way. This happened to me recently. I woke up feeling a deep calmness, a knowing that the things, goals I desire are making their way to me. The same way you naturally know to go to the restroom when you need to pee, just like that. It feels good.
Maybe this calmness, this vibe shift is that moment of surrender the spiritual girlies are always talking about. I’ve submitted hundreds of job applications at this point, I’ve never been more rejected in my life! But I don’t really care. Every other day, I wake up and send a few more resumes out. I am not going to give up just because one hasn’t stuck.
My days do feel somewhat repetitive — everyday is just today. At first, having so much freedom was troubling but now, I feel like I am too feral to sit in an office working on something that doesn’t really matter, for a company that doesn’t care about me and would replace me in an instant.
If this moment of my life has taught me anything about myself, it is that life is too short to be doing something that makes you feel meaningless and insignificant. There are billions of people on this planet, at least one or two of them are looking for someone just like you. There is at minimum, one person who needs to hear or see what you have to say. Why limit yourself to what you have always done when there is a world of endless possibilities.
Given my current circumstances, I’ve been doing tons of research lately on careers and job pivots. I swear I haven’t watched this many YouTube videos since I was 15 and I was obsessed with hair and makeup tutorials. What I have learned is that everyone pretty much has a personal brand they have cultivate and sell to the world. Everyone has that one thing that they are known for. Clearly, this has me thinking about myself and my own “Personal Brand”. Which surprisingly has been somewhat difficult. Thinking of myself as a brand makes me feel like a product. Which is a weird way to try to see myself. I feel like such a boundless person with so many varying interest that trying to name them has me feeling like a buffering computer. I am like Shrek and onions, I have many layers, so how many layers of myself do I want to expose?
I find it amusing when people send me memes or things that remind them of me. Getting messages like “this is so dlo” or “this is dlo coded” sometimes makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside because its like, “wow, this is how you perceive me”. Now I am figuring out ways to box up the funny, cute, Hello Kitty, free-spirited ways people perceive me into a Personal Brand. How does one translate Dolores into DOLORES™. I guessssss its time to fck around and find out!
